I am struggling. I don’t know why and a part of me doesn’t care.
The last few weeks I’ve been spiralling down and it’s continuing into the upcoming week. I am torn between thinking I should do something about it and feeling like this low, dark place where I don’t really care to care.
In moments of lucidity I can see how bad things are getting and I think in those moments I should probably intervene and stop the spiral from getting lower. But then the moment passes and most likely because I suppressed it and avoided it, and I just sink into the depths of numbness and suddenly it’s no longer an issue.
I hope the space in my head doesn’t spin into a really bad place but I make no promises.
Here’s hoping I can climb out before it’s too late.